long and useless

I've said it once, I've said it a thousand times, and I'll say it again.

Shigure is one cruel, manipulative fuck. And he is dangerously, passionately, darkly in love with Akito and it's a little scary to think of it. It's not candy and sparkles and all that other usual fluff associated with shoujo manga. I don't even know if Furuba could be classified as shoujo with both Akito and Shigure in it. Shigure, who's sadistic impulses probably outclass that of Akito's. Shigure, who's pulled the puppet strings from day one. Shigure, who's terrible ways were outshone by Akito's general madness.

May the two of them have some ending where I don't want to die after reading.

Seriously. I'm rereading Ch.108, and I feel so weirdly unclean. And I finally think I figured out what Tohru's problem is coming from.

It's guilt. Guilt over the fact that someone is slowly replacing the Most Important spot in her heart. Guilt over not being able to help anyone. Guilt over too many things that are simply not her fault and this could get ugly very soon. It's a little ironic. Tohru has too much guilt and Akito has too little. There's also something there that I think, as readers, we're being kept in the dark about. Something about Tohru's past that we're not privy to as of yet, but will be soon. This was after all, a manga that started out as Tohru's story. Somehow, it got wrenched from there and went haphazardly all over the place, but it's firmly back where it started.

I'm just kind of hoping this doesn't implode in our faces.